confused.

I have been under the "whyosis syndrome" lately. Taken from the column, A WONDERFUL LIFE BY ROD NEPOMOCENO in a daily newspaper. Whyosis syndrome is a phase or a particular period in life when one tends to just keep on asking the unending question---- WHY?.

Were you a victim of this dilema? have you suffered this syndrome? was there a point in your life where you have asked why?, why, why?

Let's take the case of one of my co teacher, she was in her early 40's. a good person, loving wife and mother, dedicated teacher, too good, to suffer and die of cancer. WHY HER?? why not the corrupt politicians who steal the people's money. Why not the terrorists who kill lives. WHY?

Why is life so fair yet seems so unfair. There are people who are in authority yet are VERY NOT WORTHY of the position. And here's an honest clerk who works hard for the office yet receives the minimum wage of less than P500 a day. WHY IS THIS HAPPENING?

I have no answers for these questions.. cause right now, i am under the spell of whyosis syndrome.

But what i find helpful with this situation is that, I can look deeper with my life. This is an opportunity for me to reflect on my acts, my deeds. This makes me ask, am i worthy of what i have in life?

Once I heard, "God is using even the deepest wound to mold us the person we are worth of."

confused?? me too.

...enough!