Lola's little girl

this post is in memory of: Florentina S. Rodriguez (march 14, 1922 - October 29, 2009)
she tried to hang on, but her age and vital signs don't want to.... Granny died at age 87 last October 29, 2009 9:50 am at the ICU... i was on my way home to pay her a visit but it was too late.... i know, you know that i am in pain... as i am writing this post, the pain cannot be explained. Matured as i am, i know she is in better place now, but i still feel the emptiness she left.. NO ONE not even my soon to be hubby can take the place of "lola" in my life. surely i will forever be "lola's little girl". I am the MOST favorite, no one will refute that, it cannot be denied, she took care of me since birth till the time i found a job. it was her loving hands who molded me to become who i am right now. the only thing she did not do for me is to carry me inside her womb.... many times i tried not to go home for 2-3 months... that is in my attempt to move on "independently" but i would get homesick, what i usually do is, pay Lola a short visit site beside her (stay there for a while) and amazingly, my fever or headache just vanished. it happened many times, SHE was the cure to my pain... with her i know i am alright, cause i know she's there to take care of me...
now that she's gone, who will look after me?? who will ...

"lola", thank you so sooo much. we have our not so nice times / bad times but it is nothing compared to the love you have given me. thank you so sooo much. i will forever miss you.. i love you.