loosing hope

gosh i missed doing this...

i really couldn't say if i have been busy or o just cannot compose myself to create an article to post. the last days have been so tough for me. i really am loosing hope of meeting that dream... as of now, for almost 2 years, HE is still a picture, an idea, a hope... i have prayed almost all kinds of prayer and have asked all possible saints i could ask help from. i even asked the late Mrs. Aquino to continue praying for us (including) me (that means the lovelife)... i really am trying hard to understand the message but just can't.... i need time. i need space. i just want to be alone... have i not been alone all my life??
am so sooo sad.