i can't say that i have grown up already for there is still the kid stuff in me. :) and yeah, i still needed to be cuddled. LOL. weeee, can't imagine. hehe
i am still a little girl by name, and i miss the one who always treated me as such. It has been 10 months since she passed away and it is still that hard to really accept that she is in God's hands now. i still, at times, cry myself to sleep especially when i miss her. i often dream of her hugging me, while i tell her what has happened to my life. I know for sure, she would have really given that hug, tight hug if she is still alive now. I miss her kisses. i remember whenever my birthday comes, the first thing i do is go to her and have her kiss me on the cheek. and with that i know i am loved. one of the things i also miss is when i cut her toenails...it somehow made me feel like giving her the care she needed, i remember how she smile when i hand her a box of her milk every time i go visit her after receiving my month's pay. . . one thing i regret ----------------- she never saw me in my WORKING UNIFORM. I work in a place 3 hour drive away from home and since i go and visit her on saturdays, she never had the chance of seeing me as a "professional" if i may really use that term. she only sees me as her little girl no more no less.
missing you my Lola so soooo much.
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