TO or NOT TO

today is one of the typical days... work - home routine... been very busy at work and i hardly had time to even ponder on my daily experiences...
physically, i am okay, (still malnourished) LOL. had my weight checked just the other day and in fairness, there was an increase... not that much.. but at least there is increase :) am taking 3 capsules of supplement these days, my appetite is way too different from what i used to have, haha. plus, i have normal thyroid condition now, my hyperthyroidism is on leave.:D i hope it will be permanent.
the last 2 months have been tough, at work there were so many changes... from the department secretary down to our school principal, and now we have 2 assistant principals. so i have 3 bosses..
as a famous cliche goes, ONLY CHANGE NEVER CHANGE.
these changes included losing 2 lovely ladies whom i called friends. they were assigned in other school due to the exigency of service.. hays. well, that's life... the mid-year for me is really a time of change/s.. it is not easy but i am getting along. drops of tears still fall at times, yeap... i still cry, for the same reason... feeling a little less painful though. (sigh) if only i know why.
tomorrow's another day... to feel blessed and loved by the One who stays and mean it when He says I LOVE YOU, the same One Who is the reason for every thing.
I am thinking of filing a leave of absence and just be alone. I think i need a break.. from every thing. :) i just want to be alone (as always) and feel His presence in my life. I would like to go out of town or even go home and be with the memory of my granny. oh i miss living... :D for months i have been living dead. with no heart with no soul. Uhuh, i lost my heart and soul. I thought i gave it to the right one (dumb me), only to find out i will be left... all alone, in mid-air. (here i go again)
i dont know if i should file that leave or not. i have to think about it to make a good decision, a thing i know i will not regret.

that will be all for today.